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This is a story about a hardcore bachelor who made a vow after his divorce to never to give his heart to any woman. It was a promise he kept for close to 30 years. He was an intelligent, stubborn, shy, 63 years old ndn man who was a secret romantic at heart. He grew up in extreme poverty on an ndn reservation. Despite his Dakota upbringing by his strong Dakota mother he still fell victim to the pitfalls prevalent on his reservation and lived a drunken life of worthlessness. At the age of 31, his Dakota upbringing resurfaced and rescued him from his sordid life of chronic alcoholism. Once sober he embraced his Dakota values and rapidly made up for the lost time. Eventually, he obtained a doctorate degree in leadership and made valuable contributions to his community and family. His relatives loved him, his friends admired him, and even some who only heard about him respected him. 

However, even though sobriety radically changed his behavior, a dark side remained. He continued to punish his enemies severely and at times treat people with little, or no respect. These conflicting personalities caused people to either admired him or to hate him. 

This is also a story about how a woman's nurturing  patience, unwavering love, strong faith in The Creator, and the wisdom to see what no one else could see, and how she was able to lead the stubborn, troubled ndn man from his lifelong path of self-destruction onto a road of loyalty, forgiveness, and emotional well-being. 

 At a very young age, the ndn man developed a couple of beliefs that would plague him throughout his entire life: 1.) he thought he was smarter than most people and 2.) he was convinced that rules did not apply to him.  As a result, he grew into a reckless and impulsive man who acted without thinking about consequences. People would often say to him, "Why did you do that?" And he would reply, "Idk. I just wanted to see what would happen, I guess?"  He carried this behavior into all aspects of his life until he had refined it into a science. 

For many years this vain, selfish and obstinate man, did not care who he hurt with his careless actions. He was not a mean person, but he didn't hesitate to initiate punitive actions against people who he believed had wrong him.  As a result, he soon made many enemies both in his professional and personal lives. 

While some aspects of this behavior were instrumental to his brought gaining recognition and respect in professional, tribal, and social communities especially as he advocated for the causes both off and on the reservation, it caused great injury in with his personal relationships with women.  

He did not care. 

Shortly after his divorce, his boys came to live with him full time. They did not care for any of his girl's friends which caused problems with his relationships since he always put his sons ahead of any woman. By the time his youngest son graduated from high school, he had become a full-fledged, committed bachelor. He saw no reason to change as there were always plenty of women available.  

 Sure, he recognized that he probably messed up a couple of good opportunities to settle down, but he saw no advantage in pursuing a committed relationship. 

Then, seemingly out of nowhere, he met a woman unlike no other. 

From the moment he first saw her he realized here was a very special woman. Her voice was so soft and sexy, she was strong and independent, her laugh was spontaneous, and she was so beautiful he found it hard to look directly at her. Once he started dating her he effortlessly treated her with more respect than any other woman he had been with. Without realizing it, he began to change his bachelor ways; he cut back on going to lunches with other women, he turned down requests to meet with other women, and he stopped interacting with female Friends on Facebook. He honored her this way, not because he had to, but because he wanted to.  Seeing her happy quickly became very important to him. 

 While chatting with a friend, who was a psychotherapist, she used the word "impulsivity" when diagnosing his behavior after reading his blog about driving through North Dakota blizzards: 

 http://www.spiritlakeconsulting.com/d/2017/01/surviving-not-one-but-three-no.html

When he asked her what it meant she said, "death wish, comes to mind". He took it as a joke, but he looked up the word as he does with all the new words he learns. He posted its definition on his Facebook page as a joke, but at the same time, he reluctantly admitted that it described him to a "T". This troubling realization foreshadowed things to come. 

"Impulsivity (or impulsiveness) is a multifactorial construct that involves a tendency to act on a whim, displaying  behavior characterized by little or no forethought, reflection, or consideration of the consequences."

Around the time psychotherapist friend made these troubling observations about him, his relationship with the woman of his dreams began to turn serious.   

Predictably, one day his impulsiveness led to him to say some very mean things to the woman he was beginning to love so deeply.  It was not the first time his impulsiveness caused him to inadvertently hurt her deeply and he asked himself a familiar question, "What the hell is wrong with me?"  It was a question he had occasionally asked himself when a relationship did not work out. 

This time, he associated his behavior with the definition of impulsiveness and a light bulb went off in his head.  He began to realize that just maybe there was something seriously wrong with him that contributed to his problems in his relationships with women. 

Later, while driving to see her his thoughts kept returning to his impulsiveness.  He recognized he was in serious trouble because he realized he could not control it. Up until then he never tried to control what he now realized what was his extreme impulsive behavior.  He also realized he was sort of arrogant of it and this worried him even more. In fact, it scared the hell out of him because he knew it could eventually destroy his relationship with the woman of his dreams if it had not already.  The longer he thought about it, this realization began to sink in: because of his uncontrollable impulsiveness, he had not only hurt her, he had hurt his past girlfriends as well.  

He desperately wanted to change his destructive behavior so he did what he always did when faced with a difficult decision: he turned to The Creator for help.  He prayed for strength to change his destructive conduct, for he did not want to lose this woman who had captured his heart with her compassion and understanding.  She was much more special than all the others. 

There are times when a person undergoes an incredible (and sometimes frightening) spiritual experiences that move them emotionally, intellectually, and deep in their soul. Indeed, during treatment for alcoholism, the ndn man had witnessed an alcoholic young man's transformation from a horrible person to a repentant, sorrowful, individual, literally right before his eyes. It was truly amazing. 

After he prayed, tears started to fall.  The tears he shed were regret for hurting her, for being such a horrible, mean, old man, who sabotaged many relationships by not caring about the women he hurt.  The torrent of tears he shed amazed him.   

After he stopped crying he felt as if a great weight had been lifted from his shoulders.  Deeply affected by his "breakdown" he started to take a close and honest look at himself and he did not like what he begins to see.  He was stunned when he finally realized just how horrible of a person he had become. 

He realized he could not undo the hurtful behaviors, phobias, and fears of 30 years overnight.  However, once, he identified his problem, he was confident he would be able to overcome his impulsiveness with The Creator's help once he put his mind to it.   He promised to start off by respecting her strengths, being sensitive to her limitations, to love her unconditionally, and to treat her better than he has treated any woman. 

He believes this miracle came about simply by being in her presence. His cowardly, lying, cheating ways withered and retreated when exposed to her honesty, generosity, compassion, and love for him. Her virtuousness awoke his inherent decency that he had long suppressed and the fight for his soul begins. 

Should he be able to change for the better he will do his best to keep her happy as long as she wants to keep him around.  Whether their paths remain as one or diverge in the future the bliss he has experienced with her will always warm his heart until the end of his days.   End of story. 

BACKGROUND:

Hobo Joe's story:

Several months ago, I received a Friend Request from a childhood acquaintance. Well, that is not exactly true. We never were acquaintances. We grew up on the same reservation, are the same age, and went to the same grade school, but we never spoke to each other. After graduating from 8^th grade, we went to different high schools, as there was no high school on our reservation then. At some point, I heard that she had transferred to Flandreau Indian School in Flandreau, SD, and I never saw her after that. That was 45+ years ago. Other than hearing that she had married right out of high school and moved away and a few rare discussions prompted memories of her, I never once thought about her over the years.  

When she sent a Friend request to my alter ego, Hobo Joe, I not only remembered, but I remembered her as a beautiful girl who was always teasing and giggling. And a very vivid memory of her soon popped into my head; a teacher scolded her, so I turned around and looked back at her. She had the usual mischievous look and was beginning to sit in her chair. I recall pulling her very short skirt down while she sat down. At first, I had no idea why I remembered that scene, but now I do - kind of, but I am getting ahead of myself.  

Because she sent my alter ego, Hobo Joe, a Friend request, I thought that was the name she remembered me by. Hobo Joe is the name most people knew me by back then. I soon learned she did not recognize me as Hobo Joe or Erich Longie either. I found hard that hard to believe. (How could anyone forget Hobojoe lol)?  

When I received her request, I messaged her and asked her why she wanted to be my friend. It is something I do with most requests I receive. With her, I had another reason to be cautious. I had several runs-in with her family in the past. In my case, I have long let bygones be bygones, but I was not sure about her family. She comes from a close family, just like mine, so I know when you fight with one, you fight with all of them. Her response to my questions seemed to confirm my suspicions that she was sensitive about the trouble between her family and me for she wrote, "...I'll just block you then!"  I responded by suggesting she settle down; I explained I was simply being careful. Long story short, we became Friends.

Little did I know what fate had in store for me. What happened next affected my life in a way that took this old hard-core bachelor totally by surprise.  

Bunny's story:

Some months ago, while browsing Facebook, I stumbled across a name that I did not recognize, but the person was from Spirit Lake, North Dakota, my home reservation. At the time, I was trying to connect with the community back home. Most of my relatives live there but seldom discuss news outside the family. I thought maybe this person would post things about my home that I did not hear about. I sent a friend request to Hobojoe Langer, a person I did not know. I did recognize the last name since my dad said the Langers were our relatives. I thought I was sending a request to a relative. Hobojoe first asked why I wanted to be friends with him, which I thought was weird. Most people either accept or delete your request. I assumed he was arrogant and fussy about whom he received as friends. Being very quick-tempered, I put up my defenses and said I would block him. But, he was quick to tell me to wait. He told me his real name was Erich Longie. I still did not know who he was. I remembered his younger brother but not him. I remembered the name Erich Longie, but I did not remember the person; this is where our friendship began.

FIRST MEETING:

Hobo Joe's story:

We messaged each other off and on, and after a couple of weeks, I checked out her Facebook page. I was surprised to learn she was single, for I knew she had married her high school sweetheart, and they moved to his home reservation. I quickly thought... well, what most ndn think when a middle-aged woman becomes single; her husband left her for a younger woman. It was not my business, so I never asked about her husband. Soon after we became FB friends, I learned, I was going to be traveling to a city in the state where she lived, and I asked her if she wanted to meet me for dinner. She quickly accepted my invitation. I admit I was interested in meeting her after 45 + years. However, I still considered our dinner date non-romantic. As a committed bachelor, I have lunch with women all the time. I had even invited the consultant I met the next day to accompany me to the dinner. While we were waiting in the lobby for her, I suddenly changed my mind and told him I wanted to eat with her alone.

She walked into the hotel lobby like she owned the place, which made a heck of an impression on me. We went to dinner and had one of the most excellent dinner conversations ever. We talked about events from our youth that we recalled, although we recalled them differently. It was an enjoyable walk down memory lane with a woman from another era, the same era I grew up in. We both grew up in the same harsh reservation environment of the 1950s and 1960s. She reminded me of my sisters, mom, aunties, and other women back then. She had the same strength, honesty, and no-nonsense approach as women raised in a challenging environment. I had the impression, here was a woman who took all that life threw at her, and it only made her stronger. I was impressed. The evening went by all too fast and she had to leave. She told me she had planned to go to Spirit Lake to visit her brothers and sisters and I immediately asked if I could take her for lunch at The View or the Buffet when she came and she agreed.

Bunny's story:

We messaged off and on. I tried to remember him but could not. We said we would visit if I went home for our Indian days, in the end, I was unable to go. I know I had invited him and his granddaughters to come to Crow Fair and offered to let them stay at my house. But they never came. We continued to message now and then. Then to my surprise, I get a message from Erich saying he would be in Billings and asked if it was okay to have a late lunch. This was the time of year for educators' conferences and I was scheduled for workshops that Thursday and Friday I knew time was limited during the day...I asked if he was in Billings and he said he would arrive around 6 that Wednesday evening. We agreed to a late dinner. I was so excited. (Felt like a teenager) I told my grandkids I was going to dinner with a man from home. My granddaughter said who is he? My reply was "I don't know" I met him on Facebook. I was teased about having a blind date. Hahaha. I met him in the lobby where he was staying. I met the person who he was with first. I do not even remember him now. Then Erich stood up.... my heart did a jump...  I was meeting someone from home for the first time. I felt no shyness no uncomfortableness with him, only a feeling of happiness that I was going to be visiting a person from home. Honestly, I do not remember what I ate that evening I was so excited. We talked and talked for 2 hours. It was like this person knew me, knew my family, but I could not remember him. All the time we talked I kept asking myself why couldn't I remember him. It was such a good evening. He was a very polite, shy, gentleman. Later I commented it was like picking up a conversation that we had started years ago...everything about dinner, the conversation, and his presence, seemed so natural. Before I left he had invited me to lunch or dinner whenever I went back to Spirit Lake

 THE NEXT DAY:

Hobo Joe's Story

As I usually do I posted about our dinner before I went to sleep. I have dinner with different women all the time, but somehow this one was different. I kept thinking about the warm feeling I had during our dinner. The next day when I was traveling home, my mind kept returning to the dinner and conversation and how pleasant it was to be in her company. I very much wanted to see her again. At some point, I checked my Facebook and saw that she had also posted about our dinner. She had called me a gentleman (which no one ever does) and said our discussion was like we picked up a conversation we started many years before. I thought that was the perfect description of our exchange. Her post started a warm glow in the pit of my stomach. But, I had a pressing issue at home I knew I had to deal with and I quickly pushed the happiness to the back of my mind.

 Bunny's story:

I was on cloud 9 for the rest of the week. I told myself to stop acting like a foolish schoolgirl. I was 63 years old and a great-grandmother and what I felt toward a stranger was dumb.

 LUNCH AT DAKOTAH BUFFET:

Hobo Joe's Story:

She came home to visit her brothers and sisters and as we agreed, we met at the casino on Saturday for lunch. I arrived at the buffet first and got us a table. I saw her walk in and I suddenly became nervous and shy. However, once we were seated I was totally comfortable with her. During the meal at the Dakotah buffet, she hinted that she was aware of the problems that existed between her family and me, but it did not prevent us from totally enjoying each other's company. Sunday morning, she messages me and told me she was leaving in a couple of hours. My home was on her way so I almost told her to stop by my house to say goodbye. I picked up my phone before I decided not to. I figured I better not push my luck. Regardless, I wanted to see this lady again, but I had my doubts about wh about wheater it was even feasible for us to get together again.   

Bunny's story: 

I finally decided to go to Fort Totten to see my family at the end of October. I messaged Erich and told him and we made plans to have dinner. When I arrived home on Friday, I was so busy with my sisters and visiting that I did not meet Erich for dinner. I messaged Erich the next day and we planned to meet for lunch. Unfortunately, my sisters planned an early sister day the same day. I did not want to miss my lunch date with Erich so I told them I had a date for lunch. When I told everyone, it was Erich Longie I was meeting for lunch a couple of eyebrows went up although no one said anything. At the time, I thought it was because they were all thinking about my late husband. However, when I told an in-law who I was meeting she was shocked beyond belief and I begin to suspect maybe my family did not like Erich. I met Erich at the casino buffet for lunch anyway. I was not disappointed; we picked up right where we left off in Billings. It was an enjoyable hour. The food was okay, but it was our conversation and his company that I found exciting. Before I left I told him the next time he is in Billings he could come to my place for a home-cooked meal.

HOME COOKED MEAL

Hobo Joe's story:

To be honest I did not think there was a snowball's chance in hell that I would ever take her up on her invitation for a home-cooked meal. As much as I enjoyed her company I could not see how it was feasible for us to get together with 600 miles between us. I did make a mental note to contact her the next time I was in her part of the country. When I was invited to a meeting in Rapid City I messaged her to ask if her invitation for a home-cooked meal was still open. She said it was. Fortunately, the agenda changed after the meeting started. I had some free time in the afternoon. I messaged her and told her I would be there late that evening. She warned me a storm was coming. (This is the first time I told her weather does not factor into my decision when I travel.)  I did not hesitate, I gassed up my truck and headed to Lodge Grass. To be honest, it, was further than I thought, but the scenery was so beautiful I did not mind. Reservation towns are terrible when you are trying to find someone. I had to call her and she directed me to her home. I was a little apprehensive when I went inside, but she soon made me feel at ease. She served me the best home-cooked meal I had in a long time. Again, she hinted that she knew that her family did not care for me. This was the third time she mentioned the subject and I begin to wonder when she would stop chatting with me for I knew her bond with her family was strong. Nevertheless, I enjoyed our conversation and her company immensely so I stayed longer than I planned to.   Shortly after I left I ran into a mountain blizzard. The visibility and road conditions deteriorated to the point where I wondered if I would be able to make it back to Rapid City. She was aware of the blizzard and messaged me and told me to let her know when I made it back. I was touched that she cared enough to be worried about me. The next day, after the meeting, on the way home I ran into another storm. Again, she messaged with her concern for my safety. Maybe I am finally making some progress I thought to myself. I think it was after this trip that we begin to message each other on a regular basis.     

Bunny's Story:

In the first part of November, he messaged and wanted to know how far Rapid City was from where I lived. I said about 4 or 5 hours. He said he was going to be in Rapid City for a meeting and asked if my invitation for a home-cooked meal was still open. I said it was, he replied he would drive down from Rapid City the next evening. I was excited, to say the least. I asked what he wanted for dinner. He said meatloaf, or soup if it is not too much of a bother. I was thinking of a bother. I love cooking and for someone who does not care what I cook... even more so. I told my granddaughter everything about our conversation and what he wanted to eat for supper. She said, "Yuck!  No... it must be a special meal". She planned the meal and the next day we went shopping. I cooked a roast with all the veggies and made gullet and strawberry shortcake. I believe we enjoyed the meal. But again, the conversation was what was the best part of the evening. After 2 hours of food and conversation, he left back to Rapid City at the beginning of a winter blizzard. Later my granddaughter was wondering why a man would come so out of his way just to eat a meal.

THANKSGIVING DINNER IN LODGE GRASS:

Hobo Joe's Story:

During one of our chats, she asked me what I was going to do for Thanksgiving. I replied, "I might go to the buffet at the casino". She was aghast. She could not fathom anyone going to a buffet for Thanksgiving dinner. A few days later, out of the blue she invited me for Thanksgiving and I told her I would think about it. The truth was I had no intentions of driving 600 miles for a Thanksgiving dinner. However, I kept thinking about her invitation, and a few days before Thanksgiving I decided to take her up on her offer. I wanted to see if the comfort I felt in her presence was real. At 5:00 am Thanksgiving Day I loaded up granddaughters Anna and Star in my truck and by 1:20 pm I was pulling into Lodge Grass. It was a great meal. She is a fantastic cook. She had told me her sons were resistant to her dating so when her oldest son politely asked me several questions I was prepared for them and had no problems answering them for I am proud of my accomplishments. Later we sat on the couch together but I felt like a schoolboy around her. I did not even put my arm around her I felt so shy. We left early Friday morning after she cooked us breakfast. I was pleasantly surprised when she gave me an affectionate hug as I was going out the door. While driving down the road I was determined to see her again and the distance between us was not going to matter. 

Bunny's story:

We started messaging each more frequently since he came up from Rapid City for supper. It was different to be messaging with a guy, it was exciting and made me feel young again. I was not sure how long our friendship will last but I was hoping it will last for a long time. I did want to get to know him better or at least know more about him.

I asked him what he was going to do for Thanksgiving and he said might go eat at the Casino, or one of his kids would bring him a plate. I felt bad that he would be alone during Thanksgiving. I invited him to come and share Thanksgiving dinner with my family. He had said he would think about it. We messaged back and forth for a few days and he finally said he would come, but said he would have to bring his 2 granddaughters. I could not believe it! He was going to come to eat dinner at my house. I immediately begin to feel bubbles in the pit of my tummy. I knew I had to make it special for him. I went out and bought my dinner setting for the table, I even bought new centerpieces. I became more anxious as Thanksgiving Day came closer and closer. I wanted everything to be perfect for him. 

I was also scared he would back out at the last minute. I worried every time he sent a message wondering if it would say he was not coming. When he got here I tried so hard to be calm and act normal. I heard my son asking him several questions and I felt like a schoolgirl whose father was questioning her boyfriend. After dinner, I really wanted to be alone with him so we could talk again. There was something about this guy. As the evening came everyone left and it was just his granddaughters, him, and I. He got quiet and we just sat not saying much. Him on the love seat and me on the couch. I fixed a room for them to sleep in and we all went to bed. I lay in my room alone thinking; "What in the world am I doing... there is a man in my house, a stranger, and I'm here alone". But I also had a good feeling about having him here.

NEW YEAR'S WEEKEND

Hobo Joe's story:

We made plans for New Year's weekend, but the weather would not cooperate, at least from her viewpoint. For the second time, I told her the weather does not interfere with my travel plans and I would be there storm, or no storm. The storm was vicious, but I was not worried, I had driven through plenty of worse storms and road conditions dozens of times for less important reasons. For, her I would have driven through a much, much worse storm.  

We did not go anyplace to celebrate New Year's eve. We just sat on her couch and talked until five in the morning. When I left, in a blizzard, I wondered, what the hell was wrong with me? This old bachelor was not used to putting forth any effort into seeing a woman. I did not care. I knew I would go back. 

Later she told me family and friends were asking her, "Why did he drive 600 miles in a blizzard to visit you?"  I told her, "The next time they ask that question you should answer with this question, 'Why wouldn't he drive 600 miles in a blizzard to come see me?'"  People who know me know I have never let anything stand in my way when I wanted something bad enough. If I did, I would probably be dead from alcoholism long ago, or I would still be in a wheelchair, or, I would not have received my doctorate, and I probably would be dead from cancer. Driving 600 miles through blizzards and bad roads to see a winyan I care for is nothing to this old renegade when I compared it to the happiness, peace, and contentment, I experience simply by spending time with her.

 Bunny's Story:

He drove 600 miles through a blizzard to be with me. And, he left in a blizzard. I did not understand why he would drive through a bad winter storm, down here and back, just to be with me. 

MORE WEEKENDS IN MONTANA

Hobo Joe's story:

I have since been to her home several more weekends. We do not do anything exciting; mainly we just stay at her home and visit. Her home has become a safe haven for me; all my worries, my stress, and my problems seem to disappear when I am there with her. I do not get bored. In fact, watching her do her chores brings me a contented, peaceful, feeling. We usually take a drive to Sheridan or Billings. It is a beautiful country and she points out the landmarks and interesting features along the way. A couple of times we ate lunch at some restaurant, or she would ask me what I want for supper and we would stop and pick up the ingredients. These drives are the closest this old Dakota will ever get to paradise. 

We manage to discuss even the most delicate subjects with respect and consideration. On one of those drives, I asked what had happened to her husband. She told me he died in a car accident three years earlier. I sincerely expressed my belated condolences and said this; "You have suffered enough hardships in your life...it may sound strange, but I mean it when I say I wish your husband hadn't passed away. Even if it meant we wouldn't have met."  Another time she spoke of how hard it was to move on from the loss of her husband. I took that to mean we never could be close so I told her. "Some women never remarry after losing their husbands. If you want to keep his memory close to your heart till you meet him again in the next world, I will respect that. Should that change, I will still be here."  Apparently, I misinterpreted her for she did not mean that at all. I assured her I would continue to treat her special. I have taken women for granted for much too long. I am becoming aware of how destructive my cavalier attitude can be when it comes to treating women; heck, there is always another one down the road if something goes wrong. I think it is time I grew up and I am determined to treat her the like a queen. However, it will take considerable effort for this old bachelor to change his attitude. I'd better if I want to keep this relationship going.

With each visit, I become more impressed with her character. She was a winyan (woman) who came from humble beginnings, left home at a very early age, assimilated so well into her husband's tribe that it's hard to tell she is not from his reservation, raised a family, endured tragedy and hardship, but never lost her sense of humor, or became bitter and angry. Quite the opposite, she is one of the kindest and most compassionate people I have ever met. Her pride in who she is and her self-confidence is amazing. I could not help but be attracted to this amazing lady and vowed to treat her in a manner that would make up for all the hardships she experienced in life.

WHAT DOES OUR FUTURE HOLD? 

Hobo Joe and Bunny:

You would think that at 63 years of life we would be free to do what we want. While we both realize we are extremely lucky to have met each other late in my life we understand our lives are not our own. Our grown children still need us in some form or fashion, we are each raising two of our grandchildren, and our siblings and relatives often demand our time and attention. In addition to our obligations to our extended family, the distance between us is daunting. Therefore, are just enjoying the time we spend together without worrying about what tomorrow will bring. We have adopted a live-in the-moment mentality best described by the last verse of Rawbecca Ann Lotus Gienowin's poem; We have The Moment We Live In Is Now:

 But all that takes place

Is here in The Now

There is only one heaven

And it lives in This Now

Not regretting the past

And not worrying the future

It is in this Power of Now

where all life begins

The only place we can change

the state we are in

Whether it be mind, or it matter

It starts from within

By living This moment

Where life always begins

However, if there is one thing we have learned during our 63 summers on this earth is to, never say never. We are keeping our options open.

IS THERE A GREATER FORCE AT WORK HERE?

Were we fated to meet? We are beginning to think so. We talked about it several times and there are just too many coincidences for our meeting to be accidental after 45+ plus years. While we do have one mutual Friend she cannot remember exactly how she came across my name. And, once she sent me a Friend request the memory of the teacher scolding her and her sitting down while pulling down her skirt came back clear as a bell. Was it a coincidence that I change my mind at the last minute and told the consultant I wanted to have dinner with her by myself? And, to repeat what she said, everything seemed so natural between us. I think she said it best, "The Creator picked this time in our life for us to be together". I am beginning to believe her. 

CONCLUSION:

Hobo Joe Story:

After my youngest son graduated from high school I did not have the freedom I envisioned I would have. First, Anna banana was born and I was soon raising her, then I was awarded custody of Sunny and Star. Finally, I tried to save my son and his girlfriend from meth. Before I knew it, I was on the wrong side of 60, but it did not bother me too much. Eight years ago, when I was told I had cancer and had five years to live I had made up my mind I was going to go to the Spirit World as a single man. While I enjoyed the company of women I had no plans to become romantically involved with any of them.  

I am fortunate to have met a beautiful woman who is the same age as I am. Who grew up on the same reservation, faced the same challenges, and who share similar values. We also have mutual admiration for each other, she takes care of two grandchildren as I do, she had cancer, and I still do. I do not feel any pressure or jealousy when I am with her because I highly respect her integrity and honesty. I can say with certainty I treat her better than other women I have been with. This newfound maturity makes me open to whatever the future may hold for us.

I will end my story with this verse from John Prine's song, In Spite of Ourselves:

"She's my baby, 

I'm her honey, 

I'm never going to let her go."